


I can’t find the words to form a response, so I turn back to stare at the water; it’s so calm and peaceful. I find myself wishing my life was as still and tranquil, but then I remember water can also be turbulent and dangerous. It’s full of contradictions and so much mystery.
Like my life.
I link my arm in his and lay my head on his shoulder. The moon reflects on the glittering water. He kisses my head and sighs. “Don’t ever be afraid to ask for help. I’m here for you. You don’t need to deal with anything on your own anymore.”
“I used to look out into this water when I was younger.” I blink the tears away. “I often thought about what my life would have been like if my real mom was around and if I had any siblings out there.” I glance at Nico, who’s looking out to the water too. “I thought about running away, leaving everything and everyone behind. I remember packing a bag ready to run away, then my dad caught me trying to sneak out. He got so upset with me. My heart broke when he said he would die before he let me leave the house for him never to see me again.” A humorless laugh escapes my lips. “He let me go for ten years. No contact. Nothing. Ever since then, my life has been on a continuous spin. I need to get off, Nico. I need off of this rollercoaster. I need a break from everything.” He turns his head to face me, and I look up into his hazel eyes that match mine. “I’m going to New York in two weeks. Jake offered me to stay at his apartment for a few days. He won’t be there. I just need some breathing space. Just to chill and relax.”
“Do what you have to, cupcake.” Kissing my temple, he looks back at the water. “Please, just try to talk to Striker before you go.”
Closing my eyes, I take in the crisp autumn air.
“I can’t. I’m sorry, it won’t happen. I need to clear my head before I talk to him.” I let out a long sigh. He nods his head, understanding. I need to put some space between us for a few days.



































